Christianity is following the life Jesus Christ lived. It's not how a church tells you to live, it's not how your christian friends are living, it's how our Lord Jesus Christ lived. God has love and patience for us that exceed our understanding. We're not going to ever understand his existence, but we need to live by faith, consecration, and for the kingdom. We can't live for emotion, and we can't live for experience, we have to live for CHRIST. There is balance in everything, and when if we take anything to extremes, we move to cults and heretic views. Wisdom is the most important thing after faith, through wisdom we can decipher wether to be bold or humble, merciful or disciplinary.
I believe in Christianity as I believe that the sun has risen. Not only because I see it, but because I see everything by it. -- C.S. Lewis